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Sunday, December 19, 2004

Sun, 19 Dec 2004 17:01:41 GMT

*sigh* Sorry for not updating in awhile, my comp's broken so I'm using my grams. Ok now I need to tell you about the dance last night. It was going great so far, I was having fun hanging out with Lauren S. , Mike, and Katie. Then it all went wrong. We were all having fun dancing and hanging out, then Katie started to complain she was getting bored because some of the songs people had requested sucked. So we all went and sat down, I was holding hands with Mike when I leaned my head on his shoulder because I was sooo tierd that night. When he asked if I wanted to sit in his lap, Lauren had left to talk to someone by then. So I sat in his lap and leaned my head back so it was resting on his shoulder and I almost felt like going to sleep. Mike then told me that everybody had left and I looked up and saw that yes, Katie had gone with Lauren. Me and Mike ended up kissing, not just pecks this time either, we had started french kissing awhile ago. Then a song came on that I just had to dance to and told him that I had to go dance to this one and got up to go. I found Katie and Lauren out on the dance floor, I tapped Katie on the shoulder and smiled at her when she turned around.

She then said that she wasn't talking to me, so me thinking she was joking like she some times does, asked why. That's when my smile faded and my eyes went blank, she hadn't been joking and she had told me why. "Because you're a slut." Is what she had said,I then asked why, why she thought that. "Because of what you were doing with Mike in the middle of the dance, that's disgusting." I have seen way worse shit then that at the dances.

I was pissed. She had no right to call me that. By then Mike was standing next to me and saw we had gotten into a fight and asked what she had said. I didn't answer and instead said I'd be right back, seeings how I am family, I went upsatirs and into the kitchen. I then went into the back bathroom and sat and just cried for awhile. Then I got up wiped my tears and told myself that Katie would not bring me down. I had every right to do what I did and there was nothing wrong with it. I walked out and back into the kitchen when my aunt walked in and saw me. Katie was behind her. My aunt asked me what was wrong and I told her nothing, then turned to Katie and said "I'm not speaking to you." Then left the kitchen to go back down to the dance, I heard my aunt ask Katie what was going on now, I didn't hear how she answered because I had already gotten back downstairs.

Mike found me when I got back down and once again asked what was wrong, I continued to tell him that itvwas nothing. When I saw my aunt come in, she spotted me and walked over asking me what was going on. I didn't want to tell her there so I told Mike I'd be back and went with my aunt into the stairwell the led up to the kitchen. I explained what was happing and why. She told me what I had done was not wrong and I was NOT a slut for doing it. We went back to the dance, I saw the Mike was talking with some friends and went and sat with my aunt. We talked for a little bit until Mike saw me and came over. My aunt had to go make some drinks for someone. Mike took me to a back table and we sat and talked about nothing for a little while, then he asked if I wanted to sit on his lap again. I did and did the same thing I did last time, I leaned my head back onto his shoulder. Eventually I had to go to the bathroom so I got up and told him I'd be right back.

When I got back he wasn't sitting where I had left him and talking with his friends again so I went and sat over with my aunt again. When I got there she said that she was using alot of her self control right now. I asked why. She said because the girls Katie was sitting with (Cathy and Jackie) were talking about her and me. I asked what they were saying, with me it was how disgusting I was for acting that way with Mike at a dance and with my aunt it was because she had been glaring at them for talking about me. Then she told me she had talked to Jackie when she had come up to get a drink. My aunt said this, " Do not disrespect me in my own house, I read lips very well and I know what you were saying. I have the power to have you stay or go." My aunt had been pissed. A little bit later after talking with my aunt some more Mike came back and we went to sit at the back table again when I stared leaning on him again because I was tierd. I layed on him again when I sat in his lap and almost fell asleep. I stayed like that for the rest of the night, and he didn't care at all. He had buried his face in my neck and just held me.

After the dance ended I had to leave him so we kissed good-bye and I got in the car with my aunt. We had to drive Katie home, as pormised I did not say a word to her. Then Katie brought up about what my aunt had said to Jackie and my aunt proceed to lecture her about what she had said, Katie lied through most of it. And I knew it too. We dropped her off and I finally got home. My mom found out about what was going on and they all talked. I didn't hear most of it because I was in my room.

The best parts of that night though was being able to be with Mike and the beautiful gold necklace, in a heart shape with a small dimond in it, he had given to me. It was an early X-mas present. I had been so happy, and I feel so loved my him. I'm glad that we're dating and as long as I have him I don't care about Katie.

Well there it is, the whole thing, this is very long now so I gotta go. Ja ne.

Sunday, December 12, 2004

Sun, 12 Dec 2004 23:28:04 GMT

OMG! OMG! OMG! I have never been soooo happy in my life! I got a boyfriend at the dance last night! His name is Mike and I like him alot *dreamy sigh* We danced twice to slow songs and we hugged alot too, his very affectionit and luckly he's not one of those guys afraid to make the first move. Because I am a chicken so I can't make it myself. I feel comfortable with him too, I kissed him good-bye today because he had spent the night (don't even think that!) with my brother and his other friend Derek. I actually kissed him, I was on cloud nine afterwards.

I had to sit on his lap on the way home from the dance though, haha. My aunt has this really tiny jeep and we had to fit 7 people plus my aunt into the car, she drove, Katie and Cassidy were in the front. Katie got stuck in the middle of the front and Cassidy got the seat lol. Then poor poor Derek got stuck with Katie's sis Alicia's fat butt stuck in his lap. Abd Derek is like tiny ok, he looks like a stick. So yea I felt sorry for him. My brother was then in the middle of the back seat, then it went me and Mike. He squeezed my waist the whole way home and then at one point rested his head on my back, lol. I feel soooo great being with Mike and non of my past bfs ever gave my butterflies in my tummy like he does ^.^

But yea, I had alot of fun and finally getting a bf I like alot is sooo great. Me, Katie and Cassidy danced a alot at the dance too, it was fun. I only know the basics at dancing and I'm not really great at those but at least I can semi-dance normal >.< It was fun and I didn't care when I was out on the floor what people thought of me, I had Katie and Cassidy there and everything was great.

But I'm am soooo happy I feel like I'm gunna burst, Mike is great ^___^ And I still can't believe I kissed him, it was just this little chaste peck on the lips good-bye but it still felt good to me.

Well I better go, I gotta take a shower. Ja ne!

Thursday, December 09, 2004

Thu, 09 Dec 2004 00:19:47 GMT

Yo! Well my life is much better now, I've been going to school andddddd me and Katie made up! We're back to being best friends again! Yaya! Lol, I get to skip 2 tests we're taking in History and I'm doing better with the homework. Mr. Kinder has not had to come pick me up again, thank god. We had a two hour delay today because the roads were so bad, everyone was hoping school would have been cancled, but alas, we had to go. Classes were shorter at least!

The dance we had at our family resturant was a success and that was only in our area, just wait until my aunt gets to all the other schools around NH. We had about 60 teens there, mostly high-schoolers though. Quite a few hotties at least, lol. Cassidy's birthday is on saturday, so happy b-day!!!! I gave her her gift early and told her you can open it on your b-day or on x-mas. She decided her b-day I believe. I'm afraid this isn't going to bed very long...

I just watched the movie Hero with Jet-Li, totally awesome!! It's dubbed though because it was made in China so the mouths move different then the english words. On the dvd you can watch it in it's original Chinese with subs if you'd perfer it that way, because I do and I'm so used to reading subs from animes the it doesn't make a difference to me. But the movie was very good! I also wached Ladykillers, funny but....odd, very odd, lol.

Well I still have a very small amount of homework to do so I'll need to be going! Ja ne!

Saturday, December 04, 2004

Sat, 04 Dec 2004 18:39:35 GMT

Welp, my life's not all the great right now but not really bad either. I'm having troubles with Katie again, but I'm not even going to talk about her because I promised my mom I'd be civil to her. I could say soo many things, but I won't. Anyway, yesterday I had to get picked up for school by the GUIDENCE counseller because I wasn't going to go to school cause I felt like crap, but I've missed sooo many days I can't stay out anymore. And my mom and I went to a meeting to talk with the guy, his name is Mr. Kinder, and I'm being put on this 504 plan and I'll get less homework. It's a law actually anyone with a mental or physical incapability can have that plan. I have depression so I get to be put on one, I'm also getting a tutor for math and Cassidy will be going to her with me.

So now I go to talk to Mr. Kinder alot and I'm going to be in a group therpy thing with Cassidy, who's also in it. But it was embarrising to be brought to school by him, the principal, and the nurse who came to take a look at me and confirmed that I was getting a sore throat but still wouldn't let me stay home, I was hysterical, crying my eyes out. I was soooo embarresed. I've been very emotional the last few days, I got in a fight with my mom and was crying all morning that day too, I apoligized to her for the things I said though. My grandmother got so worried and scared yesterday, and wanted to take away my pain so bad that she was in tears all day. I felt sooo soo bad, I didn't mean for her to cry, I never wanted that to happen.

I also think that I failed my math test >.< I didn't understand it so...yea...oh well, lol. I thought I had all F's too! But I don't! I'm only failing 2 classes, I thought I was failing them all!!! I was soo happy when I found out I wasn't. My mom's already started decorating for Christmas and I now have lights infesting my house, lol. Oh well, my mom loves decorating for X-Mas, actually so do I.

I'm going to a dance tonight with Cassidy and Odessa. It's at my family resturant and I get in for freeeee ^.^ I'm hoping Kyle will be there <.< >.> Lol, yea. I have a total crush on him, he's never off my mind, I swear. Adam turned 21 yesterday, and I pikced on him, lol. But that was only cause he was pickin on me too! Then at like 2 in the damn morning he comes in totally drunk and wakes me up, saying "come on! Get up! There's a party going on!" And I'm like, wtf, go the hell away I'm trying to sleep. When he shook me again I groaned and hit with a pillow. Then He proceeded to laugh and take the blankets ( I was asleep on the floor in the living room with Cassidy cause she had spent the night) and he rolled me over with them. Then my step dad told him to leave me alone and to go to bed, his exact words were "Come on dumbass, go to bed." Lmao, you could never guess they were brothers, xD

Then in the morning he comes downstairs holding his head groaning from the massive hang-over her had. I'm was like, good, you deserve it for waking me up and bugging me last night, lmao. It was funny >.< I've gotten sooo many cds for x-mas, i am very happy ^.^ I can't wait until FMA gets here! Cassidy wants to watch it with me when I get it on x-mas, she's like you gotta come over to my house or I gotta go over there and sit on our asses and watch it all day, lol xD

Well this is getting long and I have stuff to do....like getting some foood. I haven't eaten since breakfest. Ja ne ~.^

Saturday, November 27, 2004

Sat, 27 Nov 2004 19:37:18 GMT

WOOOHOOOO! I GOT FMA FOR X-MAS!! YAY!! My mom got it for after finding a really great deal on ebay, so any day now it'll be comin in the mail. I won't get to watch it until Christmas day but that's ok, it's right around the corner. I can wait. How does everybody like the RoyxEd icon ^.~

I have another round of anime playing tonight so I'll be up late, my moms going out because Katie's mom is forcing her to go see this band that'll be playing out our family resturant. My step dad'll be home but still, I don't want my mom to go out tonight. I wanted her to stay hom, but I guess that's not happening.

I'm gunna go beg her later to see if we can rent movies, I'm so bored and I just felt like sitting around the house being lazy and watching movies all day. I've seen every movie in our house a million times....well except my new Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban dvd ^.^ My gram rocks, she buys me all the books and all the movies. But still I don't feel like watching that again, I've already seen it about 8 times in 3 days. So maybe, if I'm real sweet about it I can get my mom to rent a movie or two, that'd be nice and it'd give me something to do. Though I really should get reading my books for this quater of school, but I'm not in the mood to read today so screw it, lol.

I haven't talked to Cassidy in awhile, she hasn't been online, she's usally always online, unless she's sick or something. I was at her house when I started getting this really bad cold. Oh, I don't think I ever said anything about that, well here's what I got. 2 ear infections, on in each ear, the headaches of headaches, a very sick tummy, virtgo, dizzyness, almost throwing up, and to top it all off a really really really bad sore throat. Luckly it's almost gone now, I had to take antibiotics for my ears but they're getting much better, no more pain. But it really sucked, it was 2 fridays ago that I got it, it started out as just a scrachy throat then later it escalated in to something way bigger, I felt sorry for Cassidy cause I spent the night at her house and I felt so sick in the morning all I did was lay around her house and sleep. I just hope I didn't give her that cold, that would completely suck for her.

Well this has gotten awfully long, I gotta go see if I can rent those movies anyway. Ja ne!

Friday, November 26, 2004

Fri, 26 Nov 2004 03:14:55 GMT

Wooo!! My Thanksgiving was great!!! So here's what went on, we all ate an awesome dinner ^.^ mmmm, the turkey was soooo good. My bro has Ethen over, my step dads little bro and we also had Adam my dads other little brother. Except Ethen's 14 and Adam's 20, lol. Well after eating with the whole fam we put on music and everybody was dancing to slow songs. And forced by my 4 year old baby cus, I had to dance with Adam to all the slow songs >_< He had me pressed right up against him and he started to teach me to 2 step. God, it was sooo embarrsing, Adams pretty cute too. So that made it even worse xD I got the hand of the dance after awhile and then after one of the songs ended I escaped cause my face must have been beat red, lol.

Then my aunt put on some good dancing music, hip-hop that kinda stuff. And after I loosened up I actually danced in front of everybody and didn't care. My baby cuz was break dancing xD Then my aunt, baby cuz, and uncle all went home. The rest of them proceded to have kareoke, besides my mom they all have bad voices (Ryan and Adam). Then we got stuck listening to Adam's horrible country music that he's trying to get me to like, ha! Fat chance...

Katie's off groundation early!!!! I'm sooooooo happy! Lmao xD!

Well I gotta go to bed now, *yawn* very sleepy...ja ne!

Sunday, November 21, 2004

Sun, 21 Nov 2004 21:53:20 GMT

Been awhile hasn't it....well I ended up staying home for 3 days to get over my cold, those were the last days I had so I can't miss anymore school. I'm not planning to anymore anyway, my grades are dropping and I don't want to end up in the same grade as my brother, I want my mom to be happy with my grades.So I'm really really going to start working my ass off. I refues to be a failure. I will get good grades if it's the last thing I do. I swear to the powers that be, I will do my best to pass 8th grade!

So that means I need to study more for my tests and quizes, I need stop skipping out on my homework and not doing it. I need to finish it all, come home in the afternoon and get straight to it, not sit on my ass at the computer until 6 and get nothing done.

*sigh* Yea, so that's it for that, lol. Katie got grounded -_- She's confined to her room and I can't contact, see, or even hear her outside of school. It was all her sisters fault too. The minute Katie walked through the door when she got home her sister kicked her in her gut then tried to lock her out of the house. When Katie finally got in she called her sis I stupid cunt for trying to lock her out and kicking her and then her sister attacked her! And Katie of course defended herself, so they got in a fist fight and now Katie's confind to her room until December 5th -_- her parents are too fuckin stricked. It's disgusting, she even has to sneak out of her room to freakin pee! She has her meals brought to her, its like she's in fuckin jail! It's stupid, I would hate to have her parents.

Well when I went back to school last thursday Kyle didn't say anything about me liking him, all he's done is pretty much ignore me. But oh well, right now school is more importent then boys, sure I'd like a boyfriend, but I want good grades more then anything right now.

Well, I'm gunna go now. Ja ne!

Tuesday, November 16, 2004

Tue, 16 Nov 2004 21:53:02 GMT

*sigh* I have a major cold right now T.T This is my second day of not going to school. These times are when I wish I was still home-schooled. Well Sammie told Kyle, it turns out that he didn't laugh, or make fun of me in anyway. But he doesn't like me, he never exactly said he didn't, he just likes someone else, which is Sammie. I can deal, I still really really like him but....unless he starts to like me I have to give up on getting him. I gotta face it, I am not going to get a bf.

But enough with that! I need hugs and comments so I can feel better! Lol, so if you leave me a comment don't foget to give me a bigggg hug in it! I could use them...

My mom's actually been understanding and not biting my head off about not going to school, I guess that's because she knows I'm not faking this time. So what am I going to do today, take a long nap and sit on my ass playing Final Fantasy, lol. I just hope I feel better by tomorrow. I'm gunna be getting my make up work to do, but still staying out three days in a row is going to hurt my grades. So I better get better soon, not that I want to go to school mind you, I just don't wanna end up failing. I wonder if Kyle will say anything when I do go back to school...

I can't wait until saturday comes again, it means there'll be another FMA ep ^.^ I love that show...Ed rocks my socks lol.

Well I might as well go, I have Final Fantasy to play. Ja ne!

Sunday, November 14, 2004

Sun, 14 Nov 2004 22:47:48 GMT

OMG! I am like soooo worried! I asked Sammie to tell Kyle that I like him....what if he doesn't like me back!! What am I gunna do! What if he laughs at me!?? I am so scared! She's gunna tell him tomorrow.....god. I don't think I could be this worried, I guess it's cause I like Kyle alot so....I don't want him to laugh at me, or avoid me, or something along those lines after he knows. What if he hates me after!! *freaks out* Ok...calm down Lauren...it's oook. That isn't helping!

Ok I'm freaking over nothing, everythings going to be fine. He's just another guy....that won't like me T.T I'm such a freakin chicken shit. I need to get some guts and fast!

I started my job today, I'm working as a waitress at my family resturant, it's really fun once you get the hang of it. I kept forgetting to say Thank You and Have a Nice Day to my customers though >_< I was sooo embarresed.

I watched the second ep of FMA last night, another awesome episode if I do say so myself, lol. And of course YYH ^_^ My mom had a big party going downstairs though so I had to turn my tv up really loud so I could hear over the music and horrible singing. At one point they had Kareoke -_- It was scary to the ears I tell ya, I swear if I had to hear one more horribley sung song that I liked I was gunna go down and strangle them all -_-++ It got annoying real fast. That reminds me....I need to go pick through the cds that they stole from my room and put them back where they belong.

Well all in all, it's been an ok weekend. I've got some money, and I get paid next week. So I am all good. Well I better go, almost dinner time. Ja ne!

P.S. can anyone tell me if this xanga looks messed up?

Friday, November 12, 2004

Fri, 12 Nov 2004 14:27:56 GMT

Everythings ok with me and Katie now, she explained why she had been acting the way she had been. So we're all better now. I stayed home from school today, I was soooo tierd. So I'm over here at my grandmothers right now typing this, her computer is sooo slow, lol. But it works anyway, I didn't feel like going back home so I stayed over here with her, my mom is going to kill me when she gets home and finds out I didn't go to school >_< I'll have to deal though. I'll get yelled at, have me head bitten off, have her be mad at me for the rest of the day then get over it. It's the same thing every time. I feel quilty afterwards, but oh well.

I'm watching one of my grandmothers old musicals >_< Seven Brides for Seven Brothers....it's kinda of a funny movie. Old, but still funny. My baby cusions kitten is here, he is such a cutie ^.^ She named him Marbulos....*shakes head* She can't pronounce words right, its funny xD So we ended up calling him Marbie, but I call him Gaki all the time, lol. Gaki - Brat in Japenese. Because he is a total brat xD

Another name I use all the time, but not for Marbie, is Usurukontachi, Moron of morons (learned it from reading too many Naruto fanfics) I use it for my brother all the time, he's so dumb he doesn't even relise it's an insult. I call him Dobe too....lol.

Well I don't have much to talk about anymore, so ja ne!