She then said that she wasn't talking to me, so me thinking she was joking like she some times does, asked why. That's when my smile faded and my eyes went blank, she hadn't been joking and she had told me why. "Because you're a slut." Is what she had said,I then asked why, why she thought that. "Because of what you were doing with Mike in the middle of the dance, that's disgusting." I have seen way worse shit then that at the dances.

I was pissed. She had no right to call me that. By then Mike was standing next to me and saw we had gotten into a fight and asked what she had said. I didn't answer and instead said I'd be right back, seeings how I am family, I went upsatirs and into the kitchen. I then went into the back bathroom and sat and just cried for awhile. Then I got up wiped my tears and told myself that Katie would not bring me down. I had every right to do what I did and there was nothing wrong with it. I walked out and back into the kitchen when my aunt walked in and saw me. Katie was behind her. My aunt asked me what was wrong and I told her nothing, then turned to Katie and said "I'm not speaking to you." Then left the kitchen to go back down to the dance, I heard my aunt ask Katie what was going on now, I didn't hear how she answered because I had already gotten back downstairs.

Mike found me when I got back down and once again asked what was wrong, I continued to tell him that itvwas nothing. When I saw my aunt come in, she spotted me and walked over asking me what was going on. I didn't want to tell her there so I told Mike I'd be back and went with my aunt into the stairwell the led up to the kitchen. I explained what was happing and why. She told me what I had done was not wrong and I was NOT a slut for doing it. We went back to the dance, I saw the Mike was talking with some friends and went and sat with my aunt. We talked for a little bit until Mike saw me and came over. My aunt had to go make some drinks for someone. Mike took me to a back table and we sat and talked about nothing for a little while, then he asked if I wanted to sit on his lap again. I did and did the same thing I did last time, I leaned my head back onto his shoulder. Eventually I had to go to the bathroom so I got up and told him I'd be right back.

When I got back he wasn't sitting where I had left him and talking with his friends again so I went and sat over with my aunt again. When I got there she said that she was using alot of her self control right now. I asked why. She said because the girls Katie was sitting with (Cathy and Jackie) were talking about her and me. I asked what they were saying, with me it was how disgusting I was for acting that way with Mike at a dance and with my aunt it was because she had been glaring at them for talking about me. Then she told me she had talked to Jackie when she had come up to get a drink. My aunt said this, " Do not disrespect me in my own house, I read lips very well and I know what you were saying. I have the power to have you stay or go." My aunt had been pissed. A little bit later after talking with my aunt some more Mike came back and we went to sit at the back table again when I stared leaning on him again because I was tierd. I layed on him again when I sat in his lap and almost fell asleep. I stayed like that for the rest of the night, and he didn't care at all. He had buried his face in my neck and just held me.

After the dance ended I had to leave him so we kissed good-bye and I got in the car with my aunt. We had to drive Katie home, as pormised I did not say a word to her. Then Katie brought up about what my aunt had said to Jackie and my aunt proceed to lecture her about what she had said, Katie lied through most of it. And I knew it too. We dropped her off and I finally got home. My mom found out about what was going on and they all talked. I didn't hear most of it because I was in my room.

The best parts of that night though was being able to be with Mike and the beautiful gold necklace, in a heart shape with a small dimond in it, he had given to me. It was an early X-mas present. I had been so happy, and I feel so loved my him. I'm glad that we're dating and as long as I have him I don't care about Katie.

Well there it is, the whole thing, this is very long now so I gotta go. Ja ne.

I had to sit on his lap on the way home from the dance though, haha. My aunt has this really tiny jeep and we had to fit 7 people plus my aunt into the car, she drove, Katie and Cassidy were in the front. Katie got stuck in the middle of the front and Cassidy got the seat lol. Then poor poor Derek got stuck with Katie's sis Alicia's fat butt stuck in his lap. Abd Derek is like tiny ok, he looks like a stick. So yea I felt sorry for him. My brother was then in the middle of the back seat, then it went me and Mike. He squeezed my waist the whole way home and then at one point rested his head on my back, lol. I feel soooo great being with Mike and non of my past bfs ever gave my butterflies in my tummy like he does ^.^

But yea, I had alot of fun and finally getting a bf I like alot is sooo great. Me, Katie and Cassidy danced a alot at the dance too, it was fun. I only know the basics at dancing and I'm not really great at those but at least I can semi-dance normal >.< It was fun and I didn't care when I was out on the floor what people thought of me, I had Katie and Cassidy there and everything was great.

But I'm am soooo happy I feel like I'm gunna burst, Mike is great ^___^ And I still can't believe I kissed him, it was just this little chaste peck on the lips good-bye but it still felt good to me.

Well I better go, I gotta take a shower. Ja ne!

The dance we had at our family resturant was a success and that was only in our area, just wait until my aunt gets to all the other schools around NH. We had about 60 teens there, mostly high-schoolers though. Quite a few hotties at least, lol. Cassidy's birthday is on saturday, so happy b-day!!!! I gave her her gift early and told her you can open it on your b-day or on x-mas. She decided her b-day I believe. I'm afraid this isn't going to bed very long...

I just watched the movie Hero with Jet-Li, totally awesome!! It's dubbed though because it was made in China so the mouths move different then the english words. On the dvd you can watch it in it's original Chinese with subs if you'd perfer it that way, because I do and I'm so used to reading subs from animes the it doesn't make a difference to me. But the movie was very good! I also wached Ladykillers, funny but....odd, very odd, lol.

Well I still have a very small amount of homework to do so I'll need to be going! Ja ne!

So now I go to talk to Mr. Kinder alot and I'm going to be in a group therpy thing with Cassidy, who's also in it. But it was embarrising to be brought to school by him, the principal, and the nurse who came to take a look at me and confirmed that I was getting a sore throat but still wouldn't let me stay home, I was hysterical, crying my eyes out. I was soooo embarresed. I've been very emotional the last few days, I got in a fight with my mom and was crying all morning that day too, I apoligized to her for the things I said though. My grandmother got so worried and scared yesterday, and wanted to take away my pain so bad that she was in tears all day. I felt sooo soo bad, I didn't mean for her to cry, I never wanted that to happen.

I also think that I failed my math test >.< I didn't understand it so...yea...oh well, lol. I thought I had all F's too! But I don't! I'm only failing 2 classes, I thought I was failing them all!!! I was soo happy when I found out I wasn't. My mom's already started decorating for Christmas and I now have lights infesting my house, lol. Oh well, my mom loves decorating for X-Mas, actually so do I.

I'm going to a dance tonight with Cassidy and Odessa. It's at my family resturant and I get in for freeeee ^.^ I'm hoping Kyle will be there <.< >.> Lol, yea. I have a total crush on him, he's never off my mind, I swear. Adam turned 21 yesterday, and I pikced on him, lol. But that was only cause he was pickin on me too! Then at like 2 in the damn morning he comes in totally drunk and wakes me up, saying "come on! Get up! There's a party going on!" And I'm like, wtf, go the hell away I'm trying to sleep. When he shook me again I groaned and hit with a pillow. Then He proceeded to laugh and take the blankets ( I was asleep on the floor in the living room with Cassidy cause she had spent the night) and he rolled me over with them. Then my step dad told him to leave me alone and to go to bed, his exact words were "Come on dumbass, go to bed." Lmao, you could never guess they were brothers, xD

Then in the morning he comes downstairs holding his head groaning from the massive hang-over her had. I'm was like, good, you deserve it for waking me up and bugging me last night, lmao. It was funny >.< I've gotten sooo many cds for x-mas, i am very happy ^.^ I can't wait until FMA gets here! Cassidy wants to watch it with me when I get it on x-mas, she's like you gotta come over to my house or I gotta go over there and sit on our asses and watch it all day, lol xD

Well this is getting long and I have stuff to do....like getting some foood. I haven't eaten since breakfest. Ja ne ~.^

I have another round of anime playing tonight so I'll be up late, my moms going out because Katie's mom is forcing her to go see this band that'll be playing out our family resturant. My step dad'll be home but still, I don't want my mom to go out tonight. I wanted her to stay hom, but I guess that's not happening.

I'm gunna go beg her later to see if we can rent movies, I'm so bored and I just felt like sitting around the house being lazy and watching movies all day. I've seen every movie in our house a million times....well except my new Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban dvd ^.^ My gram rocks, she buys me all the books and all the movies. But still I don't feel like watching that again, I've already seen it about 8 times in 3 days. So maybe, if I'm real sweet about it I can get my mom to rent a movie or two, that'd be nice and it'd give me something to do. Though I really should get reading my books for this quater of school, but I'm not in the mood to read today so screw it, lol.

I haven't talked to Cassidy in awhile, she hasn't been online, she's usally always online, unless she's sick or something. I was at her house when I started getting this really bad cold. Oh, I don't think I ever said anything about that, well here's what I got. 2 ear infections, on in each ear, the headaches of headaches, a very sick tummy, virtgo, dizzyness, almost throwing up, and to top it all off a really really really bad sore throat. Luckly it's almost gone now, I had to take antibiotics for my ears but they're getting much better, no more pain. But it really sucked, it was 2 fridays ago that I got it, it started out as just a scrachy throat then later it escalated in to something way bigger, I felt sorry for Cassidy cause I spent the night at her house and I felt so sick in the morning all I did was lay around her house and sleep. I just hope I didn't give her that cold, that would completely suck for her.

Well this has gotten awfully long, I gotta go see if I can rent those movies anyway. Ja ne!